The Things That Didn’t Make Sense Then (But Do Now)

There are so many little moments from my childhood that used to just sit in my brain like ???

Not bad. Not good. Just… confusing.

Like:

• why I felt things so intensely
• why certain random things meant everything to me
• why I’d get stuck on one idea, one interest, one feeling
• why I sometimes felt a bit out of sync with everyone else

At the time, it just felt like I was… weird.

But now?

It makes sense.

I wasn’t “too much” — I was feeling deeply.
I wasn’t “obsessed” — I was finding comfort.
I wasn’t “overthinking” — I was trying to understand a world that didn’t always feel built for me.

Even the things that still make me laugh now (because honestly… some of it was chaotic 😂) had a reason behind them.

And I think that’s the biggest shift:
nothing about younger me was random.

She was just doing her best with what she had.

Figuring things out.
Holding onto what felt safe.
Making her own little sense of everything.

And now I get to look back and go,
ohhh… I see you.

Not weird.

Just… me. 💖